Day 1 Monday/yesterday was day 1 of X, where i dont have a
job. Thats not entirely true cause technically im
on holidays so really i have a job till the end
of the month. And if i was to get arrested in the
next month or do something equally dramatic, i could
be fired and hence lose a lot of money.

Anyway for all intensive purposes i have no job.
This was re-inforced when i wondered into the
night in search of food. Quickest tastiest meal =
a yiros. The guy at the store seems to like me,
he always thinks im some international student,
and asks me wat language i speak. And then he asked
whether i had finished work, which i had to reply
i dont work anymore, which is a strange sensation.

Back to day 1, had to wake up early, which i guess
makes me a lot harder working that a few ppl, there
is an ssumption its all beer and skittles. Skittles
are no good anyway. Everything went pear shaped
for most of the day, which i was told wasnt that bad,
coz pears are tasty, but i was reffering to the shape,
not the flavour. In any case day 1 was look hopeless.

I wonder wat drives ppl over the edge, where is that
futurama vending machine. Wouldnt it be interesting
if no one actually cared about ur existence. Sort of
like that piano guy. U could disapear and no one
would wonder were u went. It would free up your actions
a lot more, tomorrow, u could be gone, and everyone
would plod along with little thought as to your
absence. When i was young i thought it was distrubing
that, ppl didnt seem to care. Surely a care free
existence is better. May be if someone wants to die, let them.
Im all for trying to save everyone but, save the ppl who
want to be saved first. For example in big brother yesterday
it was considered inappropriate to talk about the shopping
after someone had been evicted. I mean hes gone get on with
it really.

Yesterday i was reading a new blog, which seemed to be
critical of ppl who played poker, quit their job, and
bought cameras, hmmm me,me me. I mean i dont think the post
was serious but behind every semi-serious post is an
underlying element of truth. The thread seemed to be
about how unproductive and how degenerate gamblers
type these ppl were. And the comments were about how
u should do something constructive with their lives.

Well may be ur right, perhaps i am a degenerate gambler,
who adds nothing to society, and well i guess only time
will tell. According to jon, stage 1 - chess prodigy
stage 2 - gambler , stage 3- criminal. I dont know
where he got that from, but i guess time will tell.  ¶ 4:33 PM