being sick being sick is no good, also just missed out on vegas qualification
yesterday. Arghhh. 13th, top 6 get seats top 9 got money,
again !!! Thats two 13ths and an 11th so far.

once vegas qualification finishes i feel there will be a burden
off my shoulders. I dont even know y i think im good enuff,
i cant even make it through a field of 300 idiots.

by my calculation i seem to waste a lot of money playing tournaments
and time. I guess the idea is to improve, and to play in a live
tournament and do well.

i need balance as well. would be good to go on some adventures,
is it my imagination or are ppl becoming less adventurous ?

As frage said its hard to fly like a swan when your surrounded
by geese. May be i am a goose. A disorgansied goose.

I think im weak willed, i ended up watching 3 episodes of deadwood,
on monday night, wat was the point of that. 1. deadwood is kinda
boring, 2. its not a period im interested in. 3. there are
better things to do then distract urself for 3 hours with.
Sitting around watching tv, kills all creativity. Its ok for
other ppl, they had a tough day, wat did i do ? Theres no
sense of accomplisment after watching tv. So its good to have
achieved b4.

I also dont know wats happening in the world, i feel out
of focus like in deconstructing harry. Hes there but
hes just out of focus.

In the positive side i fixed up my poker game, to the best
its been, other than the occasional lapse in concentration.

Hey and we won soccer on wednesday, finally we won a competition.
Technically we didnt win, coz the game was called off at 4-4,
when two players got sent off and the team walked off, but
u know, cant be fussy.

I cant believe someone spiked themselves on the zoo gates,
after stealing from a vending machine. It doesnt seem right.
Why ? Such a waste. Apparently there were two of them, and
the other person left him , impaled.

How come it started raining the day after i bought my bike i wonder.
I guess bike sales go down in winter.

I watched when harry met sally , u can put in requests to james,
and he'll burn u the dvd. Hes good like that. Everyone remembers
that one scene. But the rest of the movie is pretty funny. Harry
says its impossible for a guy and a girl to be friends. If
they are friends they dont really want to be friends, unless they're
both in a relationship. Then its possible, but not really coz
why do they need to hang out with each other outside of their
own existing relationship, unless something is missing ?? So therefore
it breaks down again. Anyway it does seem to be the exception rather
than the rule. Ppl might say, oh , we're friends but are they? And
wat ppl class as friends can seem quite broad anyway. Once in a while
socialising i dont think really counts. Which then lends credit
to the idea, of the happy monkey society, where they do what they
want, they're all friends and no one is any relationship. Perhaps
ppl just kid themselves their friends ?? Anyway its a good movie.  ¶ 10:26 PM